Home sweet home~
I haven’t even started packing luggage and I need to leave for the airport in a few hours time. I think I can forget about catching any sleep 😪
Another long day tomorrow before the weekends arrive.
Dinner on Sat and off I go to Guangzhou again.
Sadly, this time I shall be staying at Sofitel instead of Marriott which has a better location 🙁 It is not going to stop me from cabbing over for my beloved cheese toast though! Not even the 2 kgs I put on during my last trip can keep me away from nom nom nom 😏
I am have been mentally preparing S and pray that she will react to my absence better this time. Worried and guilty, hopefully I can bring the kiddos somewhere during school holidays.
Case hearing will be in Nov *fingers crossed* Lots of planning to do for 2018 and the outcome will definitely have some impacts on the considerations.
Nevertheless, life goes on…
Sometimes, we just have to take a deep breath, relax and let things go. Focus on whats within our control and let whats not work itself out. Just take it one step at a time.
Im not sure you get my messages but trying anyway.I know what day it is tomorrow.Im trying to move on. Reluctantly. But you are not willing to make us work so why should I keep waiting… a wasted love that I think could be saved. You can decide our outcome. I know what I want despite my actions may not show it right now.If you want to spend the rest of your life with me. Act.If not. Stay silent.We both deserve to be loved and be happy. So if it’s not me I hope you find someone else despite how much it hurts.Read your blog last night and got extremely triggered… it’s not healthy for me…
Angry and abusive partners tend to be anxious by temperament. From the time they were children, they’ve had a sense of dread that things will go badly and that they will fail to cope. They try to control their environment to avoid feelings of failure and inadequacy. The strategy of trying to control others fails to satisfy them for the simple reason that the primary cause of their anxiety is within them. It springs from one of two sources—a heavy dread of failure, or fear of harm, isolation, and deprivation.