I want to be with people whose integrity is greater than any rule book and whose loyalty is stronger than blood.
“Someday, all the love you’ve given away, will find its way back to you, and it will finally stay.”
And I know this is vice-versa.
I know I was being a pain when I said “It’s just makeup” last night. He wasn’t offended, he replied kindly and patiently.
And that means a lot to me. Such attitude makes me guilty and reminds myself it’s time to get over that, I might not be able to do so instantly but slowly I shall get there.
Waking up to a lovely text he sent helps to cope with doubts and anxiety from the nagging thoughts such as “what is he doing again behind my back?”, “what is he hiding again?”, I am subconsciously preparing myself and keeping a look out for signs of the devaluation cycle etc.
This is definitely not going to be easy for us if we should try.